I have been unguarded at how I simply can not find the words to finish unguarded part one. But really, it only boils down to only one word...Betrayal. Of course this single word trails into others, infidelity, lies, deceit etc., but one can wrap them all up with a big bow in a box called "Betrayal". A trait beyond redemption, though the betrayer has even deceived themselves into thinking otherwise.
After returning the u-haul, I opened the door to what I know now, was not the beginnings of betrayal, but the middle of it. It began with the first email two years before....and I fell for it, hook, line, and sinker.
It was a rouse well played. I know now, I should have expected nothing more.
If it looks like a duck, and quacks like a duck, no matter how far it runs, or how much it thinks it's a swan, and more importantly, no matter how much it claims to be a swan, ...it's still a duck.
And already, it has been proven so....several times over...and will continue on still.
Unguarded...no, not any more.
And that was my lesson.
The upside....I still get to fall in love for the first time! Falling in love with someone who really doesn't exist except in lies and deceit...gets you an automatic reset :-)
